A couple weeks back, my life was suddenly flipped upside down when I ended up in the emergency room very early in the morning on Friday, September 30th. Life can change in the blink of an eye, and it’s in these moments that I always realize what truly matters, and I’m able to let go of what doesn’t.
When the universe is trying to tell me something, I’ve learned to listen. It wasn’t always this way, which is much of the reason I was so sick for so many years.
On the night of Thursday, September 28th, I suddenly developed severe abdominal pain. I NEVER have pain in my gut anymore, so this definitely took me by surprise. My symptoms rapidly increased and I was in some of the most intense pain that I’ve ever experienced when I heard my inner voice say loud and clear that I needed to go the hospital.
For those who know me, you know the hospital is the LAST place I ever want to go. I haven’t been there in well over 5 years, annnnd I can’t say I missed it! If you know me really well, you also know there’s no way I’ll take an ambulance if I’m able to walk. Walking or waiting any longer were no longer options, and my intuition is always spot on, so I listened and called my husband, Mike.
Mike was at work, but thankfully he was at a fire station nearby, so he was able to ride with me in the ambulance. He has been my rock through everything, and there is no one I trust more with my life than him.
After several tests, a doctor ran into my room and told the nurse to immediately start an NG tube. This is basically a tube that goes from your nose to your stomach, which I also discovered is not the most fun, haha. 😉 I had an obstruction caused by a twist in my small intestine, and the NG tube would be used to pump fluid out of my stomach, as my intestines wouldn’t allow anything to pass.
Although I was in such extreme physical pain, I was able to stay completely calm in my mind. This is because I’ve learned this incredibly important lesson about life –
Life is always happening FOR ME, not to me.
This doesn’t mean that life always happens the way I want it to. It means, that no matter what, I trust that there is a greater purpose behind it all.
Every doctor I met told me the same thing – they have absolutely no idea what caused the twist in my intestines, and that this is something that “just happens to anyone.” I know that’s basically the answer that no one wants to hear, because if that’s the case, it means that this can happen to anyone, at anytime.
Here’s the thing though, I don’t believe that anything “just happens.” Through my own life I’ve found that there’s always a much bigger purpose behind every challenging experience that I’ve ever faced.
It’s during the times when it feels like my life is falling apart, that it’s really only changing direction, and coming together more beautifully than I could have ever imagined.
This is why I don’t worry, and why I’m not thinking twice about this ever happening again. Instead, I’ll continue to take the very best care of myself and trust that the Universe always has my back.
Don’t get me wrong, I used to worry about EVERYTHING. Over time, I’ve realized that worrying doesn’t do me any good, and in fact, it only made things worse.
The next time you find yourself worried about anything, take a step back and ask yourself if feeling this way is actually changing the situation. I’m going to guess that it isn’t.
Whenever you’re worried, the first step is to recognize that feeling this way isn’t doing you or anyone else any good. I’ve found the best way to let go of worrying is to take action. If you’re worried about anything in your own life, make a plan to do something to change the situation. If it’s someone else you’re worried about, do something to help them. Send them a card, make them a meal, or ask what it is that you can help with.
When you turn your worry into action, this puts you back in control.
I know what it’s like to feel so worried that you can hardly think straight, and I now know that this doesn’t do anyone any good. When I know better, I always do better.
If you happen to be a worrier, I hope this post helps you find a new way to approach life! It’s not always easy at first, but it’s so worth putting in the effort to change your life for good.